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POSTED ON: Tuesday, February 9, 2010 @ 9:14 PM | 0 comments
I was walking along our street a while ago when a familiar song played on my iPod. I suddenly came to the realization that in two days time, I'll be turning 18. I couldn't really believe it by now, I can't believe that 17 years had already passed and for the past 15 years and a half, I grew up without a father. What's even more amazing is, I never really felt that I grew up without having one.
Everyday, when I get the chance to pray and thank God for all the wonderful blessings He has given me, I always remember to thank Him for making me feel complete, for making me feel as if I never really lack anything. It was as if I always had a complete family, with a mother and a father, as if no one was missing. For all the substitutes He has given me, I feel like I'll never be able to thank Him fully. The least I can do is be kind and be patient with everybody.
I was talking to one of my blockmates yesterday and she asked me where my father is. I told her he died 15 years ago and I grew up with my Mom and my Mom's boyfriend since I was 7. She asked me how he died and I told her that it was a motor accident. She was stunned, she asked me, how come I tell her of the story without being sad or reluctant about it. She even told me that if it was her, she might be crying while telling the "story" to others. I pondered hard for the reason why. I suddenly remembered the conversation I had with Eds. I told her how I feel amazing about my life. I have grown, developed, with only my Mama by my side, but it never made me feel less. Instead, I always feel wonderful whenever I think of all the substitutes that God has bestowed me. In matters regarding family, I already had more of my share. What more if you consider friends? The people who'd been a part of my life since I was 1, up until now, they are the people who I owe my life to. It was because of them that I became the person that I am. :)
Back when I was 2-4 years old, we used to have a party at my Grandma's house in Laguna. We celebrate my birthday and eat a lot of food. I enjoy the feeling of receiving gifts and being watched while opening them. I can still remember vividly my 4th birthday, where my tita gave me a bunch of coloring books. She keeps on asking me, "Did you like it?" I've never been really good on expressing how I feel but I said yes anyway. Strange as it may seem, but whenever I remember those moments, I keep asking myself, what in the world have I done to deserve those people?
My Lola Caring who used to cook for me boiled egg and noodles whenever I was sick and takes care of me when I was 5 and my Mama had to leave for work. My Lola Bining who never fails to remember me during Christmas and who, just by smiling, already brightens up my day. My Tita Dyes, who never failed to send me cards during my birthday and Christmas day. My Tita Trining, who never forgets to remind me to be good, not only with my mom but with everybody around me and who always makes sure that I have a bright future ahead of me. My Tita Nita who cooks for us really delicious food every Christmas and New Year. My Tito Junior who had always defended me and believed in everything that I could possibly do. My Tita Jenny, who's not always present but always makes me feel that in every event, she is. My Tita Vangie who always chats me on Facebook just to ask how am I doing. My Tita Donna who was like my second mom because she takes care of me like my real mom and has this really cool way of watching me eat, as if making sure that I put everything into my mouth. My Tito Bong, who was the coolest tito ever, simply because he always knows what I want without me having to say it out loud. My cousins, especially Beverly and Karmie, for treating me like their own sisters. And Jon and Nico for playing Counter Strike with me when we were kids. I always feel like I am an important part of their life. And of course, when we talk about my family, I will never ever forget to mention my Mom. My Mama who never failed to provide everything that I need, who goes to work everyday so I could go to school and eat 3 times a day. Who sacrifices a lot of time and effort just so I would never feel bad whenever we go to the mall and can't buy something I desperately like. Who has been a father and a mother rolled into one. She, who had been a great contributor to the person I've become. I just can express how lucky I feel having these people with me as I grow up. God had showered me with so many blessings, I ran out of ways to say thank you.
And oh, wait. Will I ever forget my friends? Of course not.
I had friends in Elementary but I have forgotten most of them so I'll just acknowledge the friends I had since Highschool, since they're the ones who started to change my life anyway. :P
Let me start with Eds. Not because she is my best friend but because it seems to be more than that most of the time. She's that one person who understands me like a family and treats me like a family. She never talks when I say something, she just lets me finish and go on. She calls me when she feels like I need someone to talk to, and I never really have to beg for her to do that. She stayed irregardless of all my flaws and shortcomings. She just did, no questions asked, no doubts. I just woke up one day, we became friends, and since then, I woke up everyday with her around me. Supporting me with every little thing I put my heart into. Jamie, my bestfriend since 7th grade. I will never forget that "meant-to-be" moment, when I came late for the first day of school and it was you who I first talked to. Who would've thought that we would be the best of friends? I was just laughing, enjoying every word that comes from your mouth, and the next thing I knew, we were already walking and enjoying ourselves at Morning Side, talking about every random topic and counting how many Pillows are there in a pack. I've always thought of you as my "lost" sister, it amazes me how we can be together all day and never get bored. Corina, who wasn't my closest bestfriend, but stayed anyway. She was always available and though we weren't really the ones who stick together all the time, there's this assurance with her that whenever I need someone to listen and make me feel good, she's just there waiting. She never looks at me based on what she barely sees but always takes her time to understand the depth of my heart. Rose, who had always been my partner in crime. She never failed to protect me since Highschool even though I wasn't really there to defend her from all the harsh realities of life. She stood by me through everything, helping and always finding ways to make my life better. Tine, who gives real meaning to the word "friend". She listens and never asks for anything in return. She remains through it all without getting tired of all my rants and stories. At the end of each day, I always feel a lot better when I talk to her. She's really great in making life sound so easy. Teytey, for always being a source of happiness. She happens to be my stress reliever whenever I'm having a bad day. I don't know how she does it but whenever we're together, all I can do is laugh. Just laugh. Marianne, for understanding --and when I say understanding, I mean, everything. You're the most patient friend I had, seriously. And even though we always hurt each other physically, you never take any of it personally. Love you, Marianne :>
I still have a couple of persons who I want to say my thank you to. Wait.
Daisy, I don't know how to say sorry if you're still mad. But I'll say thank you anyway. God knows how I'm badly wishing to be okay with you since last week. I miss talking to you and telling you everything. I'm sorry, Dai. Proceeding... Mon, for being my closest g(u/a)y friend. I long wished for someone like you, and there you are. God's really generous in granting me my prayers. Thank you for making me laugh and smile, whenever, wherever. Gabby, you're an angel. God wanted to make my life bearable, that's why He thought of sending you. I feel lucky that I had the chance of knowing you and having a glimpse of who you really are. You've made me capable of believing that there's a solution for every problem --no matter how hard or tough it may seem. Chiarra, for being so adorable and for being you, thank you. You never fail to put a smile on my face each and every day. Whenever I see you, it seems as if in an unconscious way, I am being recharged. Overflowing na siguro energy mo kaya naipapasa yung iba sakin. But seriously, thank you. You're indeed a great person. :) Kim, I feel so happy last Friday when we went to SM San Lazaro and ate and talked and window shopped. You're such a great buddy. You know many ways to make me feel better and secured. Chanelle, Cha and Ianne, I won't be complete without you. And last but not the least, Dindi and Fem, for being my seatmates forever. You just don't how you make my everyday enjoyable and crazy. I just couldn't imagine how I'd be without the two of you. My college life won't be complete without all of you. THANK YOU! ;)
There are still a lot of things to be grateful for but this post would prolly be too long, much longer than it already is. Thank you, God. You've given me such a wonderful life.
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Too lazy to think of a title
POSTED ON: Tuesday, February 9, 2010 @ 9:14 PM | 0 comments
I was walking along our street a while ago when a familiar song played on my iPod. I suddenly came to the realization that in two days time, I'll be turning 18. I couldn't really believe it by now, I can't believe that 17 years had already passed and for the past 15 years and a half, I grew up without a father. What's even more amazing is, I never really felt that I grew up without having one.
Everyday, when I get the chance to pray and thank God for all the wonderful blessings He has given me, I always remember to thank Him for making me feel complete, for making me feel as if I never really lack anything. It was as if I always had a complete family, with a mother and a father, as if no one was missing. For all the substitutes He has given me, I feel like I'll never be able to thank Him fully. The least I can do is be kind and be patient with everybody.
I was talking to one of my blockmates yesterday and she asked me where my father is. I told her he died 15 years ago and I grew up with my Mom and my Mom's boyfriend since I was 7. She asked me how he died and I told her that it was a motor accident. She was stunned, she asked me, how come I tell her of the story without being sad or reluctant about it. She even told me that if it was her, she might be crying while telling the "story" to others. I pondered hard for the reason why. I suddenly remembered the conversation I had with Eds. I told her how I feel amazing about my life. I have grown, developed, with only my Mama by my side, but it never made me feel less. Instead, I always feel wonderful whenever I think of all the substitutes that God has bestowed me. In matters regarding family, I already had more of my share. What more if you consider friends? The people who'd been a part of my life since I was 1, up until now, they are the people who I owe my life to. It was because of them that I became the person that I am. :)
Back when I was 2-4 years old, we used to have a party at my Grandma's house in Laguna. We celebrate my birthday and eat a lot of food. I enjoy the feeling of receiving gifts and being watched while opening them. I can still remember vividly my 4th birthday, where my tita gave me a bunch of coloring books. She keeps on asking me, "Did you like it?" I've never been really good on expressing how I feel but I said yes anyway. Strange as it may seem, but whenever I remember those moments, I keep asking myself, what in the world have I done to deserve those people?
My Lola Caring who used to cook for me boiled egg and noodles whenever I was sick and takes care of me when I was 5 and my Mama had to leave for work. My Lola Bining who never fails to remember me during Christmas and who, just by smiling, already brightens up my day. My Tita Dyes, who never failed to send me cards during my birthday and Christmas day. My Tita Trining, who never forgets to remind me to be good, not only with my mom but with everybody around me and who always makes sure that I have a bright future ahead of me. My Tita Nita who cooks for us really delicious food every Christmas and New Year. My Tito Junior who had always defended me and believed in everything that I could possibly do. My Tita Jenny, who's not always present but always makes me feel that in every event, she is. My Tita Vangie who always chats me on Facebook just to ask how am I doing. My Tita Donna who was like my second mom because she takes care of me like my real mom and has this really cool way of watching me eat, as if making sure that I put everything into my mouth. My Tito Bong, who was the coolest tito ever, simply because he always knows what I want without me having to say it out loud. My cousins, especially Beverly and Karmie, for treating me like their own sisters. And Jon and Nico for playing Counter Strike with me when we were kids. I always feel like I am an important part of their life. And of course, when we talk about my family, I will never ever forget to mention my Mom. My Mama who never failed to provide everything that I need, who goes to work everyday so I could go to school and eat 3 times a day. Who sacrifices a lot of time and effort just so I would never feel bad whenever we go to the mall and can't buy something I desperately like. Who has been a father and a mother rolled into one. She, who had been a great contributor to the person I've become. I just can express how lucky I feel having these people with me as I grow up. God had showered me with so many blessings, I ran out of ways to say thank you.
And oh, wait. Will I ever forget my friends? Of course not.
I had friends in Elementary but I have forgotten most of them so I'll just acknowledge the friends I had since Highschool, since they're the ones who started to change my life anyway. :P
Let me start with Eds. Not because she is my best friend but because it seems to be more than that most of the time. She's that one person who understands me like a family and treats me like a family. She never talks when I say something, she just lets me finish and go on. She calls me when she feels like I need someone to talk to, and I never really have to beg for her to do that. She stayed irregardless of all my flaws and shortcomings. She just did, no questions asked, no doubts. I just woke up one day, we became friends, and since then, I woke up everyday with her around me. Supporting me with every little thing I put my heart into. Jamie, my bestfriend since 7th grade. I will never forget that "meant-to-be" moment, when I came late for the first day of school and it was you who I first talked to. Who would've thought that we would be the best of friends? I was just laughing, enjoying every word that comes from your mouth, and the next thing I knew, we were already walking and enjoying ourselves at Morning Side, talking about every random topic and counting how many Pillows are there in a pack. I've always thought of you as my "lost" sister, it amazes me how we can be together all day and never get bored. Corina, who wasn't my closest bestfriend, but stayed anyway. She was always available and though we weren't really the ones who stick together all the time, there's this assurance with her that whenever I need someone to listen and make me feel good, she's just there waiting. She never looks at me based on what she barely sees but always takes her time to understand the depth of my heart. Rose, who had always been my partner in crime. She never failed to protect me since Highschool even though I wasn't really there to defend her from all the harsh realities of life. She stood by me through everything, helping and always finding ways to make my life better. Tine, who gives real meaning to the word "friend". She listens and never asks for anything in return. She remains through it all without getting tired of all my rants and stories. At the end of each day, I always feel a lot better when I talk to her. She's really great in making life sound so easy. Teytey, for always being a source of happiness. She happens to be my stress reliever whenever I'm having a bad day. I don't know how she does it but whenever we're together, all I can do is laugh. Just laugh. Marianne, for understanding --and when I say understanding, I mean, everything. You're the most patient friend I had, seriously. And even though we always hurt each other physically, you never take any of it personally. Love you, Marianne :>
I still have a couple of persons who I want to say my thank you to. Wait.
Daisy, I don't know how to say sorry if you're still mad. But I'll say thank you anyway. God knows how I'm badly wishing to be okay with you since last week. I miss talking to you and telling you everything. I'm sorry, Dai. Proceeding... Mon, for being my closest g(u/a)y friend. I long wished for someone like you, and there you are. God's really generous in granting me my prayers. Thank you for making me laugh and smile, whenever, wherever. Gabby, you're an angel. God wanted to make my life bearable, that's why He thought of sending you. I feel lucky that I had the chance of knowing you and having a glimpse of who you really are. You've made me capable of believing that there's a solution for every problem --no matter how hard or tough it may seem. Chiarra, for being so adorable and for being you, thank you. You never fail to put a smile on my face each and every day. Whenever I see you, it seems as if in an unconscious way, I am being recharged. Overflowing na siguro energy mo kaya naipapasa yung iba sakin. But seriously, thank you. You're indeed a great person. :) Kim, I feel so happy last Friday when we went to SM San Lazaro and ate and talked and window shopped. You're such a great buddy. You know many ways to make me feel better and secured. Chanelle, Cha and Ianne, I won't be complete without you. And last but not the least, Dindi and Fem, for being my seatmates forever. You just don't how you make my everyday enjoyable and crazy. I just couldn't imagine how I'd be without the two of you. My college life won't be complete without all of you. THANK YOU! ;)
There are still a lot of things to be grateful for but this post would prolly be too long, much longer than it already is. Thank you, God. You've given me such a wonderful life.
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